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Letting Go of the wheel

“I believe we write our own stories. And each time we think we know the end – we don’t. Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance, and in peace that comes from knowing that you just can’t know it all. You know, life’s funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.” — Little Black Book

I’m a control freak and always like to have control. One of the hardest things for me is letting go and allowing for nature to take its course. I’m doing my best to just “let things happen”. Most recently, I’ve started dating….my ex. The ex who in January of 2007 broke my heart into a million pieces. The ex who “wasn’t ready” and who needed to have “space” and “take a break”. And after trying to be friends for four months after the break-up, realizing that wasn’t going to work and officially cutting him off in June of 2007, he instantly reappeared into my life a few weeks ago.

And then last weekend at my birthday party, the connection was there. It’s magnetic and something draws us in to each other. I can’t deny it, even if I tried. Long story short, we’ve agreed to try and rebuild our friendship and we’re going to date each other. Yes, date, and actually “court” one another, the good ole fashion way.

I’m nervous, scared and trying to work through all the hidden emotions and see what’s what.
I’ll keep you all posted.

And pics of my fierce birthday party dress to come. The party was insane!

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